by WhathaveI
There are two sides to everything......even the truth.
This will be a bit like a daily me but more like a real journal. I've become more aware of how important the things we learn each day are and how I need to remind myself of what each day has taught me, either, for the first time, or as most often happens, for a second or third time...... I'm also having my usual tussle with the internet and some of the people on it, so what's new ?
I wont neccessarily post everyday as I'm not intending on putting that much pressure on myself and having thought about it the real reason I am doing this is to keep a diary of the craziness that is life, so that if I EVER become famous and am forced to write an autobiography I will have an abundance of vacuous material to put in. (Takes toungue out of cheek)
I also had time to mull over why I have invited just the small group of people I have. If you are here its because I value whatever it is you bring to this small place on the interent. Put simply........Friend.
I've put the moany bit at the bottom of the page now! I'm already cringing at it but I shall leave it as a reminder of how I am swinging between rational and irrational thought and emotion.
THE MOANY BIT!!!!!!
I have also been very unwell for a number of years now and am at a point where the line between some kind of decent recovery and a life of infinite illness is begining to piss me off! I'm piqued too by the fact that no-one seems to recognise or care about my daily struggle, some mornings I can't get out of bed and even if I manage to stand upright my feet are so painful it hurts to walk. This has been a new development since May from a nasty virus - shingles - which affected my face and right eye, very painful indeed and very exhausting. But see I'm moaning again and I should know better, there are afterall people much worse off than me. Hmmmmmpph
Therefore I need somewhere to vent.
Am adding only a few select friends as I dont wish to share with everyone. Think I have reached a time of life where being very sensitive anyway, just emphasizes even more the emotions I feel. I'm calling it my 'Mental Pause' appropriate for all kinds of reasons though apparently I havent actually reached this biological point yet according to the Doc ! it feels like it though and I hate that in the 21st century it is still a very ill discussed subject and carries such Taboo and misinformation and a sense that somehow you are passed it.................... mini rant over for now :-)
I realise that there will be people (admin) who will be able to read this......so be it.
There may be days when I learn more than one thing, there may be days when I dont. Inevitably there will be days when I am learning the same bloody lesson I thought I'd already learned such is life.
Please dont feel you have to comment or indeed even induldge me by coming here to read the blog, I really do need to vent somewhere without offending or upsetting others. But most of all I want my moblog friends to know I havent desserted them and 'left' with a swish of my skirt and an "I 'm leaving goodbye" etc etc etc.
Great shot.
I will be coming here and 'listening', even if I don't answer you back much. As for 'deserting' anyone, it's your blog and you can blog whenever you want/need to, and to whatever audience you choose.
Thank you for inviting me on the journey with you, I might learn something about myself too x
Thanks JD I kinda want to be a bit more annoymous on here at the moment, sounds daft as the only people who will/may read any of this will be the ones I friend......................and of course they will know who I am :-)
Thanks P I am rather hoping that some of my rants might be mildly amusing :-) instead of totally mentally pausal!!
I do hope that the select friends dont think I am implyiung that they are in the same boat neccessarily. And thank you for accompanying me :-)